My thoughts and feelings

So days pass by, and I`m still waiting. I will keep waiting until I lost that one reason why I`m still holding on. You (Daniel) know, people tell me, there`s no more left for me, no more reason for me to stay. Because you have moved on, and I can't be forever stuck here waiting because you are not coming back. Let's just say you really aren't coming back, What's wrong with waiting? You MIGHT come back, then it will be worth it than regretting in the end and blaming myself for not giving it a try. Love says if I really want to get something I should fight for it. So I will be right here waiting for you.

How do you expect to forget a person who already lives in you? Daniel, you lived in my heart and mind for one month. How do you and others expect me to forget and go on within 2 weeks?! It's not even 2 weeks yet, 4 days! Torture me, make me suffer, hurt me and watch me in pain, I don't care. Maybe god made you test me and I am testing myself, how far can I go. How far can I fight for you. How strong am I to hold on. They ask me, Why am I so stupid to love someone who doesn't really love me? I answered them, "Neither of us know whether he loves me or not, so stop telling me what to do." Daniel, you gave me the strength to stand up. So I will fight until the end. I won't give up on you unless you give me a reason to. I hope I can show you better than writing all this crap wondering if you will even read it. But at least I pulled out whats in me. It's bothering me, it's tearing me down and it's making me love you more each day. The choice is in you, whether you will take me in your arms again or just let me go. I am not making you choose, but you have to because you can't leave me like this. Not like this. I hope I`m giving you the time you need.

Every time I look up at the sky, I am only expecting to see one thing. A star. A star to grant my wish. I wish there will always be You and I.

You know how crazy I am to wait for your call. For a message from you. Or your presence. Every day I wake up, I wake up with only one thing in my mind. I wake up alone, without you. I just wish someday, you will come and say "I love you" again. Because I am really dying to hear it from you. I miss you. I miss your touch, your hug, your kiss, your warmth, the way you look at me, the way you call my name, the way you take me into your arms, the way you pull me against you and the way you say you love me too.

In Love,

CheLs~