No TitLe

There are times that I feel really alone.

And or sometimes I feel i`m alone living in the world.

And there are a lot of times that I feel no one is there for me.

But it all changed when you came along.

When you came into my life.

When you were introduced to me.

And when you locked your eyes to mine.

For the first time, I finally felt someone saw me.

And you made me feel that.

With you, I never felt alone.

Although I cannot deny that at times I feel lonely.

Lonely when you're out doing something else.

Lonely when you're busy talking to someone else when you're with me.

Lonely when you always rush me home, like you want to get rid of me.

I am not complaining, cause maybe it's just you.

But sometimes, I think back.

Are you the one? Are you really the one?

or Am I the one for you?

or Am I good enough for you?

Well, I don't really know. Who knows?

Only heaven knows.

It might be you

Something in me telLs me it might be you I`ve been waiting for alL my Life.
If i`d take the chance and beLieve, wouLd it be a Lot worth it?
HonestLy, I do beLieve. Even if i don't have the exact reason why.
It`s just that i know, and i`m sure.
In a way I know my heart wilL Lead me to the path where I want.
It`s no Longer about what i need. Cause finalLy...

FinalLy, i found you.






~ CheLS

Things we can't explain

There are a lot of things we - humans - cannot explain. We couldn't explain because we couldn't find the right and exact words or sometimes we just don't understand. "They" said those things that we couldn't explain our the things only the inside part of us could.

My story:

I am a very good thinker. As in I will just keep quiet and start thinking. In my mind, it seemed like i tried communicating with my own heart. Every little things that come into my mind, seriously my mind will start functioning and think and think and think. And honestly, the results will always come negative. Always negative. I don't know why.

Like now, I don't understand myself. I feel there is something wrong. But I can't think what could it be. (The heart will never ever work with the mind - they are always against each other) But I know, it's something bad, something not good. Should I confront this feeling? Right now, there is something in my mind. But as I said, it is always negative. And yes it is negative, and guess what, I'm thinking that maybe he don't love me. Thinking about it makes me cry. And I don't want to think about it, but it's stuck there. It's like my mind is only functioning because that thing is running around my mind.

Thinking about it makes my heart feel so heavy. It's like there's a cement block on top of my heart. *damn* I hate this kinds of feelings. It seriously kills me and it can easily tear me down. Tear me down like shit. Knock out in 2 seconds. I feel so tired, like i ran for 1000 miles non-stop. I can't stop thinking too much! *Urgh*

What to do? I already forgot what to write. Because THAT thing took over my whole brain. And my whole brain is thinking about it. *holyshit* I just feel like crying right now. I just feel so lonely. I can't explain this feeling. And I`m scared to ask that maybe the answer and respond may be not good. That's why I never confront. I never talk it out. I just keep it inside me. I just feel it alone. Go through it alone. And I am now.

- Teardrops on my guitar -

You were once a stranger.

I may have done crazy things, stupid things like being with someone who I`m not really suppose to be with. Well, that's kind of one of my negative things. I don't think before I do. Which I really have to change in me.

But that thing changed itself when a stranger came along. He wasn't really a stranger, I just referred to him as a stranger because I know nothing about him. But I knew one thing. He changed me. And when I met him, he just keep on changing me. Changing me to a better person.

Now here I am, writing letters with sweet words. He made a difference in me and he got me as soon as our eyes met. It's funny how we ended up looking at the same direction. I meant I did not expect this to happen. I had no idea that he would come. It's not what I thought but still you were that stranger that came along, and to you, I found Love.

David De Gea - My sweetheart

Manchester United Goal Keeper No 1

SmiLe to the WorLd

So yeah, I spent my day with Christine, my crazy crazy and wonderful and pretty and kind and sweet best friend. We swam and swam and took pictures and chat and chat and eat.

I miss her already. We were talking about our birds the whole day. I meant, don't take that term "bird" in the wrong way. We we're talking about "the couple who loves each other so much are called Love Birds and the couples who argue a lot are angry birds." That made me laugh.

Oh, back to the topic, we were talking about our men. Mr Reuven Wan for her and Mr Daniel Gan for me. Isn't it like a co-incidence? Wan and Gan fell in love with Christine and Chels. A two retard and crazy and clumsy type girls. Well it is a miracle and we thank god we have them. They are like angels who fell down from heaven and they landed on both of us.

And oh, after me and christine finished swimming. My Gangan came before he head straight to his work. And when he reached my place, I was still having the time of my life in the shower. But trust me, I tried to bath as fast as I could cause I know he is coming. But I did not expect him to reach my place 10 minutes later after I dropped the phone call.

I spent 5 minutes with him. Sitting down there, while Christine took 6 to 7 photos of us. And he didn't even realized. Then in a while he had to rush to his work cause he is 1 hour late. I walked with him to his car and kissed goodbye and the funny part is the guard in my condo was smiling at me and saying "Boyfriend eyh."

I just kept on smiling. I was thankful to see him even if for only 5 minutes. I`m still happy. And in fact, i can't explain how happy and I look like a complete retard. And Christine is the witness in everything. We ate a lot of chocolates while talking about Reuven and Daniel. And it's just so memorable. The best part is when Daniel called Christine just to tell her to delete the photos she took cause he said he looks ugly.

And the best best best part is he told her in the end, "Please tell my girlfriend I love her and I miss her." in Chinese. And after she told me, I don't how will i react. I wanted to jump in happiness. SO what I did is just smile and smile and smile. Till I couldn't breathe. Oh, I just love this feeling. Song of the day: You Got Me by Colbie Caillat ; "I tried to hide I like you."

ps; I Love You Daniel Gan Hock Meng. I Love You So Much!

Love Letter by Juris Fernandez and Lyrics

You ROCK my world!

Honestly, I want to cry! And I don't know why. From the story of the stars, they said, "You will know the best things in life when you shed a tear." From the bottom of my heart, I love you. I love you with all my heart. And I can spend my day saying those words over and over again without getting bored of it. Because, saying it gives me the feeling that I've been waiting for. What took you so long to come to my life? You know, the first day I saw you, deep inside, I know there is something in you. Something in you that a part of me cannot live without. Thinking about you, hearing your name, writing this things about and even looking at your pictures makes me smile. A smile that has different meanings. A smile that glows from my heart. I`m sorry, because I can't just find the right and exact words. You mean a lot to me Daniel. You changed my life. You brought me to a whole new world. You showed me what love really is. I hope you would take me into your arms everyday and don't let me go. Because with you I feel safe, with you I know I will be safe. This feeling. This feeling I can't explain. No one can explain. Actually no words can. This feeling that brings me to a different world. This feeling that makes me smile for no reason. This feeling that brings tears to my eyes. This feeling that I feel when I`m with you. This feeling that I feel when you look at me. This feeling that I get when you call my name. Is the feeling I can live with forever. It is also the feeling that completed my life. Daniel, you gave me a reason to live, to smile, to love. You gave me a purpose to this world. All along, I thought no one see me, I thought I will never get to something like this. But here I am. And I thank you with all my heart, I wouldn't be here without you. I wouldn't go through without you. It is all because of you Daniel. And I promise I will always be beside you no matter what. I will not stop loving you till you say so. I hope you know that. I`m grateful I found you and now that I have you, expect me not to let go of you. When we met, I knew we could be something special. I was wrong. We are something amazing and I'm blown away that I'm so lucky to have you. When I'm with you everything is better. With you I am me. Just me. With you I never have to hide. Can you remember the first day we met? October 19th, Wednesday, Lunch time @ Chinese Shop. Can you remember the first time our eyes met? October 19th, Wednesday, Lunch time @ Chinese Shop, I will never forget that day, that day was the first day I felt there is something, when you locked your eyes to mine. Can you remember our first kiss? October 24th, Monday, Pool side of my Condo. Damn, that night you kissed me, my world stopped turning, my time stopped running, my heart stopped beating.

With you, I wish to share my life with.

~ CheLs. *inspired*

dedicated to my dear, sweetie, love, baby, to my daniel!

It is L.I.F.E.

Life. Yes, life is sometimes cruel. Sometimes not, right?

I`m sure somewhere in between of the worries, or fights, or sadness there is always a part of you that keeps the best memories in life.

Yes, sometimes you fall and tumble down. But doesn't mean you won't stand up. You fall because you have to learn how to stand back up for yourself. Be as defensive as you can, it's your life anyways. I mean, you don't HAVE to, my point is what if in the future there is no one left for you to trust or lean on? So you're just gonna lie down there and wait for someone to offer a hand? You have a leg right? (ok that's off topic!)

As I was saying, in Life, you need to learn how to say "what if" and start letting go of the word "maybe". They are never meant to be together. "What if" will always make you think twice. It is good so you can think again whether you're making the right decision. "Maybe" is a word that pulls you to the negative world. Which means YES indirectly. Wanna bet? (Joking)

Example:

1. You've been waiting for an hour for your boyfriend/girlfriend, then you're friend came up to you and invited you to just go out with him/her instead. What would you answer? Maybe? or What if?

Well yeah, that't is I guess. I kinda lost and forgot what I was going to say. Because HE just drives me crazy. Oh, I Love You Sweetie.

Oh, and it's your life anyways, it can be as messy as you think, it can be as complicated as it is, you can't do anything. NO ONE can. Just go with the flow.

SmiLe aLways, Cheers. &&