Saturday, December 24, 2011
Friday, December 23, 2011
Yeah!
Yeah CheLs.
Get over him.
When he left, he left.
He won't come back.
He is gone.
So you better go on your own way too.
You have a life.
You're beautiful, strong, brave.
And you ain't living to let someone tear you down.
There's no room for tears nor emotional moments.
It's holiday bitches.
Enjoy life, cause it's too short to make it longer for someone.
Especially for someone who chose to make it shorter.
Get over him.
When he left, he left.
He won't come back.
He is gone.
So you better go on your own way too.
You have a life.
You're beautiful, strong, brave.
And you ain't living to let someone tear you down.
There's no room for tears nor emotional moments.
It's holiday bitches.
Enjoy life, cause it's too short to make it longer for someone.
Especially for someone who chose to make it shorter.
Sunday, December 18, 2011
Wo Bu Zhi Dao!
I`m always told to forget him. But no matter what I do, I just can't. They asked me to think of the worst thing he has ever done to me and fuck him off. But no matter how bad things could get worse between me and him, there will always be good memories that I will forever cherish and that will always outweigh the bad moments.
我不知道，I don't know why I love him so much. I don't know why I loved him too much. He has something that keeps me coming back. He has something that makes me love him more each day. Something I cannot figure out. Something no one knows, something that only God can explain. I hope that something will lose it's hope like how I lost them. But it seemed to be stronger than me. It seemed to have a control over me.
I hate him, so much. But a part of me will always love him. I am a brave and strong lady. I never walk away from anything. But I`m afraid of one thing and it's to have my heart broken. He broke my heart, scattered them into pieces, and tore me apart, but I don't know why, why I can't just let go.
Without him around me, I smile, I laugh, I enjoy life and pretend that everything's fine. But when he is around me, fake smiles, faded laughter and I feel weak to pretend that things are alright. I get angry, I want to cry, I want throw things, I want to scream and I want to hurt myself when I see him. And I don't know why he affects me so much.
He makes me weak. He can make me cry. He can tear me down and I don't know why. After I met him, after I got my heart broken, I doubted myself,
"Am I still me? Or is this the real me?"
My deepest thoughts said, "Neither, it's someone who lives in you."
I wonder when will the time come that I won't have to cry myself to sleep and hide my true feelings from everybody. I wonder when I can smile without any pain behind it and when I can cry because of joy.
p.s. "I prefer you set me free than me letting you go."
~ CheLs,
我不知道，I don't know why I love him so much. I don't know why I loved him too much. He has something that keeps me coming back. He has something that makes me love him more each day. Something I cannot figure out. Something no one knows, something that only God can explain. I hope that something will lose it's hope like how I lost them. But it seemed to be stronger than me. It seemed to have a control over me.
I hate him, so much. But a part of me will always love him. I am a brave and strong lady. I never walk away from anything. But I`m afraid of one thing and it's to have my heart broken. He broke my heart, scattered them into pieces, and tore me apart, but I don't know why, why I can't just let go.
Without him around me, I smile, I laugh, I enjoy life and pretend that everything's fine. But when he is around me, fake smiles, faded laughter and I feel weak to pretend that things are alright. I get angry, I want to cry, I want throw things, I want to scream and I want to hurt myself when I see him. And I don't know why he affects me so much.
He makes me weak. He can make me cry. He can tear me down and I don't know why. After I met him, after I got my heart broken, I doubted myself,
"Am I still me? Or is this the real me?"
My deepest thoughts said, "Neither, it's someone who lives in you."
I wonder when will the time come that I won't have to cry myself to sleep and hide my true feelings from everybody. I wonder when I can smile without any pain behind it and when I can cry because of joy.
p.s. "I prefer you set me free than me letting you go."
~ CheLs,
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