HeLp me pray to our Lord to grant my wish

I cannot imagine a life without you. Because with you I found what love really is. It is something we cannot control, a feeling we can never hide. With you I felt a certain happiness. Happiness that no one can ever give me. With you I smile endlessly even though at times you may be the reason for my tears. I have one question, Could it be possibly be you and me until the end?

Dear Daniel,

I love you so much. And you know that right? I hope you would stop by here and read my blog again like how you used to do. I know we're going through the most complicated part of our relationship. But I want you to know that I`m just trying to do the best I can to keep this thing on going. But I know I will not be able to do anything by the time you make your decisions. And I am only left with an option of letting go. Without you is a whole lot crazier than with you. But the crazy moments with you are the ones I would treasure forever if ever you decided to move on and live our life on our own separate ways.

I want to let you know, that I don't want to lose you. And to live without you is the last thing I would ever wish. A life without you is like hell. I know I sound so stupid to talk like this, like saying goodbyes and all crap. I just want to be ready of what you're answer would be. I am just preparing in case I'd get hurt. I am still waiting for your answer. What ever your answer is, I would support and accept. Well I hope I meant that word "accept".

So if you would still go I will understand. And if you choose to stay I will hold your hand and never let go. I just hope you would stay.

I miss you. I miss the times we had together. I miss those days you bully me like your sister, you hang out with me like your brother, you care for me like your mother and respect me like your father and annoy me like your best friend. I miss you Daniel, I miss you a lot. Please stay.

I know we cannot always get what we want and/or need. But what if I say I really need it badly? Will it be given to me? Why does it happen to some people and why not to me too? I am only asking for one thing. One thing but it's all that I would ever want. I need him and I want him, so please help me lord to fight this loneliness and take this pain away. Cause I am truly madly crazily in love with him.