unfair~

ah,,another new day has come. another new story to deal with, another thing to do, another problem to solve. when is it ever gonna finish? or when is it gonna give me a break?

i'm tired of dealing with the heart that you broke, i'm tired fixing it back. how can i? when it decided to stay broken? when we were together, love was the greatest give ever i've received.

but now that you're gone, love was just another word i'm not meant to learn.

i stopped everything i started when we live and laugh as one, now i don't know how will i start again when i don't know my path. you said you own me, my heart and my soul. i deeply thought you meant those words, but i just realized those words weren't yours. i never regret meeting you, because somehow i've learned something for you. in this game you started, i did not lose and you did not win. it was just given to both of us to learn how long can be weak from strong and low from high. because those days i spent with you, wasn't enough for me to treasure. i miss it, i know i'm not suppose to and i'm not suppose to wish i can turn back the time. it's forbidden in my city - unforgettable pain villa. it's hard, i'm tired, i wanna stop but i just can't. something hold me back, why can't they just let us go? from the time you left me, i couldn't look at other guys, i couldn't like them, no matter how cute or handsome they are. my heart is like dead, i can't feel anything, except the pain that you left. why can't i have my freedom? what's the price of breaking my heart? huh? you think you'll get a better girl because you've dated me? you think girls are impressed? No! you gave love a bad name, no one will appreciate you, only me.. because i had appreciate, and i still do. i don't wanna say the words i have in my mind. i don't wanna be declined for the 5th time. so i'll shut up and wait.

how can you offer me the moon, stars, sun, clouds. when you can't even give me your heart? how can you love me when you can barely look at me after a mistake you did? how can you not give me another chance when you can forgive? how? why? i don't understand, it's unfair.