Words Unspoken

I don't know how to start to tell you how much I wish I was there by your side. I don't know how I managed to wait for 7 months to see you, but after being with you after that long wait, for 3 weeks, it wasn't so hard to get used to be around you even for a short time. But then I didn't realize that it would be so hard to again get use to being far apart, to accept that I had to leave again. 

It's been a week or two and I still can't get over of my 3 weeks stay with you, that almost everyday I spend with you. But now, they are all just memories. It's still so hard to accept that I had to wait for another long days, long weeks, long months before I get to see you again. Then I have come to realize that I need to let go of those times, that I need to accept that those days had passed by so that time will fly and take me until the day I'd be standing in front of you again. Until the day, I'd be seeing you smiling, looking at me. I hope you know I would do anything to be with you, but if only I can do something, you know I would. I hope you can still wait for me.

There are more of me to say, but I just can't get the right words. I don't know how will I deliver you my message. But I Love You, I always will. Despite the smiles and laughter you brought to my life, there are pain, tears, sorrow but you never left, you were never gone and thank you.