A brand new day : quite fun?

Ha! It's my sister's birthday today, people are coming over. So it's an awesome excuse to run away from my horrible emotions that's killing me. Although my day started really badly, I'll try to keep everyone busy, especially me!

well, Reg (the #1) said "I'll send you a message if I am online." and yet, still haven't received any. What sucks, he didn't even sent me a good morning message, nor How are you message. Quite enthusiastic huh? It's mean! Isn't it? How would you feel when your boyfriend did not even sent you anything to let you know he is still alive. I hated it, so much, unforgivable. Oh, I'm ready to pick up a fight.

And guess what? #2, (Oliver), said, "My girlfriend found out that I like you." Woah! I'm scared now, that girl may come any minute and start shouting at me. But, I ain't scared, I'm doing nothing. It's her man who likes me. ( LoL) But somehow, I think I like him too. It's stupid to say, not being really bitchy to my Boyfriend, but I have reasons why.

Reasons:

- Oliver was there when Reg wasn't.

- Oliver talked to me when I needed someone and Reg is not there.

- Oliver cheered me up when Reg couldn't.

- Oliver set me as #1 while I was #2 for Reg.

- Oliver stopped what he loves doing for me while Reg chose Basketball over me for a DAY!

- Oliver did what Reg didn't.

I'm not comparing, it's a fact. I'm so sorry Reg, I love you too much to let you go, but it hurts too much to stay. But I'll stay, because I'm choosing you, because I chose you. Even you love basketball and your friends more than you love me. I've been really upset lately, but I'm trying to hide it to avoid fight, but you just know me so well. Which hurts for me, because you know when there's something wrong, you know what's going on to me, but I don't know a thing to you, I don't know what's going on to you. How do you expect me to smile when you don't let me in into your world?