Wow, it's getting harder each day. I guess vacation is all about enjoying and forgetting what you have for a while. He is not coming online *sad*. I heaven't heard a word from him since he left, I'm missing him so badly, and I'm afraid I might get crazy *laughs* but I meant it, *laughs faded*.
It hurts also. I did not know, it hurts when you're missing someone you love the most. I wonder whether he misses me too. I'm being paranoid again, somehow. But at least I know and I am sure he doesn't know how to lie, so no matter what, I still had to believe him. If he says he loves me, then I believe him. But, how come he isn't here? This is hard. So hard. *sad*
I wonder how is it going to be when we meet. Will he talk to me like how he does when we are alone? Honestly, he doesn't talk to me when our friends are around, but we hardly get a chance to be alone just to talk. *sad*
I miss his hug, and kiss, and touch. I feel so sad and empty now. I felt like I lost someone and I will never get him back. Why? Why negative stuffs are coming inside my mind?! "He is just enjoying the time with his cousins!" Well, that is for sure, because that is what I am going to do. But I won't forget to talk to him.
*sigh* help me! I wish he'd come online today!
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